My mood changes with the weather. Thanks to the rain, I’ve been rather happy. Pretty poignant, but still happy. However weather is really turning out to be unpredictable. All thanks to global warming. One minute it’s all gloomy for days and the next it’s scorching hot. School, on the other hand, has been alright. I was glad that I had As & Bs for my first week. I am hoping I can maintain my grades. But who am I kidding anyway? I had an abominable rough start of the week. For the last few days I’ve been in a bit of a brain slump, just unable to concentrate properly and generally being a bit slow when it comes to general problem solving abilities. My body clock is pretty messed up and that affects my body alot.. Physically and mentally. Have you seen my eye bags?
Maths module was supposed to be easy for me since we’re only doing the basic which was Indices. It turned out I was struggling to catch up when I noticed there are lot of Albert Einstein in my class. While they only took like 3 seconds to answer a tough maths equation, I was still working it out on a piece of paper and counting with my fingers. I had been using the calculator to solve maths for the past four years of my life. Can you imagine, all the powers, square root, they can do it mentally? Note to self: BUY A NEW CALCULATOR. Database module is like hypnotising sessions, I just automatically feel like drifting off to sleep. I’m always in awe of how people can understand the Java really quickly. I told my facilitator straightforwardly today when he came up to my table during the last meeting and asked how I was coping with the problem statement. “I’m not doing anything related to java. I scanned the whole worksheet and I don’t feel like doing already when I only read the first question!“ I was expecting him to nag but instead, he was like, “I know, when you see the worksheet you feel very sian already rrrrright... It’s okay. Never mind. Let me think of a solution to help you okay…” A minute of pure guilt trip. Why is he so understanding towards students like me? I don’t deserve his kindness when I chose to be stubborn-headed. I mean, facilitators don’t usually help if you yourself choose not to try. But this faci does, no matter what. Damn I should stop behaving like a spoilt brat since I’m blessed with a sincere facilitator who is willing to guide anyone who needs help. I will never take him for granted, ever. Besides, my classmates were encouraging me to give it a try and they would just explain everything even without me asking. So thoughtful of them. I’m touched :’)
Speaking of which, I can honestly say so far I love my class, though I have yet to know all of them personally. I feel this burning class spirit. Well sort of. Nonetheless, it still digs me how quiet yet queer the malay guys in my class are. Unlike last semester, I actually put in the effort to have a conversation with every malay students (My class only have 2 girls 2 boys). The girls are perfectly fine. In fact I’m getting closer to them day by day! I’m just not sure if the malay guys are socially awkward or they just don’t enjoy talking? They look fine by the way they dress..you know what they say, looks can be deceiving. But I’m sure they’re nice. Hopefully.
One of my ex-colleagues who studies in RP too, texted me asking where I was & I told her that I’m lunching with my class and asked her why didn’t she. She told me that her class was super segregated. I have got to start counting my blessings and going out of the way to do nice things to ensure that my “luck” doesn’t run out Haha! I don’t sound like a pessimist, do I ?
Tonight’s just another one of those dark, chilly nights, the air balmy & significantly cooler; perfect for the fact that I'm planning to turn in earlier to reset my ever messed up biological clock. Have a good night's sleep, everybody! xx
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