Sophistication: Rule #22: We can’t change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.

I'm at a strange point at school. I'm not burning out as I recognise those signs well. It’s still as if I have come to a point where I need to make a decision. Shall I stay or shall I go??? It might be mentally unhealthy to be asking that kind of question when it’s only the second week but studying in RP in a course which doesn’t interest me much, makes me think about life issues. I think about my own age and future. Family and career. You know the minute you feel as though you have it all figured out, something or someone changes all that. Get what I mean? Tomorrow there's a University Fair which will be held @ RP. I'm looking forward to it and hoping the talks will answer all my doubts!

I’m kind of short on cash right now, so in order to satisfy my fashion needs, I went WINDOW shopping after school last Tuesday. Okay, I gotta admit… Usually when I say I’m going “window shopping”, it doesn’t really exist because I will still end up buying something (unless there’s nothing that catches my eye, but that rarely happens.) This time I ended up not purchasing anything! The reason was not that I couldn’t find anything of my choice but there was just somebody who was my 'BARRIER'. Hidayah was literally dragging me away whenever I wanted to go to the shoes' section. “You have enough shoes, you don’t need anymore!” and there she went pulling me away as I was about to put on a pair of stilettos. She even ran across the store just to stop me from touching any of them because “We’re here to see clothes! Not shoes!” Hahaha.

I was certainly in utter frustration. Not only I was not allowed to check out the shoes, the one and only pair that she was okay with (surprisingly?) had only 1 size left which was size 10 (I’m a 7). An electric blue T-strap flats with pointed tip and cute details on it. It was so heart breaking because it was the colour that I’ve been searching for!!! (I’m in love with electric blue for this season. Burgundy is definitely second.) I think I need more shoes for school ):

“Damn gurrrrl, I really think you have issues!” Hidayah exclaimed.

Well I don’t really bother though because the good news is…. My brother bought me shoes from Australia! I’ve not seen them yet because he has not returned to Singapore but I’m ecstatic!!! I would get calls in the middle of class from him asking me if this colour’s okay or the design is alright etc.! I told him to buy me a pair of creepers too unfortunately he could not find any ):

Anyway this was yesterday’s studio shoot. There were a lot of emotions going on that point of time but everything turned out fine at the end of the day.