Sophistication: photoshoot

I'm at a strange point at school. I'm not burning out as I recognise those signs well. It’s still as if I have come to a point where I need to make a decision. Shall I stay or shall I go??? It might be mentally unhealthy to be asking that kind of question when it’s only the second week but studying in RP in a course which doesn’t interest me much, makes me think about life issues. I think about my own age and future. Family and career. You know the minute you feel as though you have it all figured out, something or someone changes all that. Get what I mean? Tomorrow there's a University Fair which will be held @ RP. I'm looking forward to it and hoping the talks will answer all my doubts!

I’m kind of short on cash right now, so in order to satisfy my fashion needs, I went WINDOW shopping after school last Tuesday. Okay, I gotta admit… Usually when I say I’m going “window shopping”, it doesn’t really exist because I will still end up buying something (unless there’s nothing that catches my eye, but that rarely happens.) This time I ended up not purchasing anything! The reason was not that I couldn’t find anything of my choice but there was just somebody who was my 'BARRIER'. Hidayah was literally dragging me away whenever I wanted to go to the shoes' section. “You have enough shoes, you don’t need anymore!” and there she went pulling me away as I was about to put on a pair of stilettos. She even ran across the store just to stop me from touching any of them because “We’re here to see clothes! Not shoes!” Hahaha.

I was certainly in utter frustration. Not only I was not allowed to check out the shoes, the one and only pair that she was okay with (surprisingly?) had only 1 size left which was size 10 (I’m a 7). An electric blue T-strap flats with pointed tip and cute details on it. It was so heart breaking because it was the colour that I’ve been searching for!!! (I’m in love with electric blue for this season. Burgundy is definitely second.) I think I need more shoes for school ):

“Damn gurrrrl, I really think you have issues!” Hidayah exclaimed.

Well I don’t really bother though because the good news is…. My brother bought me shoes from Australia! I’ve not seen them yet because he has not returned to Singapore but I’m ecstatic!!! I would get calls in the middle of class from him asking me if this colour’s okay or the design is alright etc.! I told him to buy me a pair of creepers too unfortunately he could not find any ):

Anyway this was yesterday’s studio shoot. There were a lot of emotions going on that point of time but everything turned out fine at the end of the day.

Madly in love with cat eye sunglasses for this fall!

Soooo, when we opened the drawers, we found this squarish packets of little something.....

....At first glance we thought they were condoms!:/

We also found this and hidayah went, "What the hell is this a vibrator?" LOL

Can't wait for my brother's return tomorrow night;) Weekends are almost here. Hang in there! xx

Last April, one of my girlfriends recommended me to her relative who needed somebody to model for her portfolio. So i thought, hey that would be a good opportunity for me. She saw my facebook and gave me a call asking to come over her house because she decided to do a Summer shoot. Just a small one of course. I addressed the photographer/make-up artist as Kak Suzy even though she’s already married with a child. She's a very lovely woman, really! It was so interesting because I was literally bronze! She did a sun tan look on me which i have never done it before. That was like three layers of makeup, okay. The weather was scorching hot, my tears were so teary when she was taking my shots The focus was more on the make-up instead of the outfit so that basically explains why my photos are mostly portraits. Ah, it was a good experience, she taught me a lot too! ;)

I know I’m not a professional, but hey, I’m learning! ;) You gotta be courageous to do things that you love even if you fall. You'll never know how far you can go. In the future to come, I hope i will be given the opportunity to model for an editorial fashion shoot! It will definitely be a dream come true.