Rule #45: Be kind, for everyone is fighting a battle. You just don’t know it.

Sister & I
I feel a flicker of cynicism and wonder if all relationships walk down an inevitable path of romantic innocence to painful experience. Like in the movie Friends with Benefits, Dylan asked, “Why do relationships always start off so fun and then turn into suck-a-bag-of-dicks?” Love makes you so raw and vulnerable. It opens your chest followed by your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. Along with the blossoming of happiness, it also sprouts thorns of insecurities, fear of attractiveness, of being worthy enough to deserve it. Words can be so powerful even the simplest phrase turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. But, I know there is no use trying to whitewash over those prickles of intuition that warn you something is wrong; you really have to listen to them.

Contrary to popular belief, I am not always pessimistic. I can hear myself screaming right now, but no one else can because I am too disciplined to let that happen. My upbringing has moulded me into a conformist. I can be nonchalant about many mundane things in life but there are many points in my life where I would stop to take stock of my blessings, and take pleasure in counting them.I know life does not revolve around me and I have no answers to the many things that are going wrong in this world. It has been an emotionally charged period - not so much for me, but for many of my friends. People I like, people whom I am fond of, people who I truly care about. I see and hear so much pain over the last few weeks, it felt almost like my own.I am conscious of how big the world is and how insignificant my problems are. I feel as though I don’t want to waste another second of my life being sorrowful over disappointing loves or regrets. I just want to live and enjoy life as long as it lasts, make everybody around me happy, to grow and evolve, to see and appreciate all the amazing things the world has to offer me.

My life... has been wonderful indeed. For that, I thank you God. Your blessings have been more than abundant xx

PS: Sorry for not having any random list again for this week!
I am interested to know what you want me to share about..formspring me will do!