Sometimes you are given a gift that you don’t know how to accept. You’re not sure how to receive it, because you don’t know the depths of your own heart, and the little you do know leads you to believe that you will ruin it. Sometimes you just don’t have enough faith to believe that the good you’re given is really good as the life factors that play against you contradicts.
Can I ever be better than just ‘good enough’? Do I deserve to be truly content? Is it really THAT strange for me to want more? Am I going to the correct direction? Am I even doing the right thing right now?
These are the questions that are causing chaos in my restless heart. However, there is one other question that has begun to rise above the chaos, which echoes through my mind and stops all the others. With it, my heart begins to beat harder, and every other thought is hushed in a sickening, heart pounding silence: Why does something so right feels so wrong?
This is my life. I am living. But I don’t really feel alive...
I’ve been working my ass off for days straight (even my weekends!) now my feet hurts like crazy since I have to wear flats. I’m so used to wearing thick outsole which basically explains why it hurts more than heels. I’m not really into flats/pumps anyway; it’s the last choice I will ever pick for an outfit. (If you ever see me in flats, it means I couldn’t figure out other shoes to match with! or I purposely want to dress down.) I find it so sweet when my customers remember me even when I’m not working. Even the Caucasians, they would wave at me when they see me outside! My work has been very exhausting with the massive Christmas sale, but I can't deny that I kinda like it. Unlike my other colleagues, I’m always the type of person who enjoys being busy than having nothing to do at all…
Talking about sales, this Friday Isetan Scotts (The one located at Shaw!) is going to have a private sale for Isetan Cardmembers and guest only. Mark down now, you are not to be missed! It starts at 8.30am. Plus, you get the chance to see me in my ridiculous costume, I mean, uniform! It’s really hideous, and you have to see it to believe it! I don’t mind being laughed at, if my ugly uniform is going to make your day!!! No doubt it’s going to be a hectic one (and I’ll be busy climbing the goddamn shelves like a mad spider) Steve Madden is targeting to sell $30k worth of shoes and each individual staff- $5k! That is pretty insane because normal days, I could only sell about 10 shoes?
Please excuse me while I laugh at how pathetic my selling techniques are.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA.
Besides working, I’ve been meeting Sherini every day and it’s already been a week straight! Both of us are working at orchard area so it’s very accessible to meet up. I usually end earlier but I don’t mind waiting while I chill at her workplace (Heeren’s Spinelli) where I can get staff discount too for my drinks. Afterwards we would have our supper at Youth Park’s Kopitiam and clearly we couldn’t care less about our weight, we would just eat whenever we like even if it’s already midnight! Right, bitch?
Get what I mean?
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