Rule #48: We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars

It's cold and I have tightened the grip of my pink scarf around my shoulders. It sits snugly, restricting my hand movement. My feet are tucked under my blanket, toes squished together in happiness. I am in my brother's room, wedged comfortably into his couch whilst writing.

Recently, I spent my day with my girlfriends who gave me the best experience and the greatest joy in my secondary school days. We just chit-chat like we were never going to run out of topics to talk about. Enthusiasm level was perpetually high and we genuinely enjoyed each other’s company as we always do. During that time we discussed our past, yes, we have all had some pretty low times. I can't count the amounts of times I've been through one of those. When I say 'low' it does not at all mean I was destructive, just that decisions I made which affected others and myself I was not proud of.

All and all, through those low times I've learnt. I can sit here thinking and writing about my past, upset about all of those not so great times and be so proud of the person I am today. I may not have a lot to give, we're not rich by any means and time can be taken up by so many little things. But I do have a lot of love here and I know how to forgive.

I missed you so much. I hope to see you again soon, Syafiqah Parlan.
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We gave Alastair an advanced birthday surprise last Friday since his actual birthday fell on the 17th. The week before, I had to laugh because I "canceled" on him after his 3-months of planning to go Sentosa. I didn’t feel guilty because I had a good intention, but at the same time I knew he was very disappointed in me. I didn’t want to miss his birthday like I did last year, so I thought of making up to him by asking everyone to turn up on Friday night to have a mini celebration. With the help of my friend Dinie and the rest, it went better than we all expected ;)













Friends since 2005! Who knew we would be this close 6 years later?;)

















I appologise if anybody was left out in this birthday celebration. Please know that we have no intention of not inviting any particular people as this meet up was quite a last minute plan. Thanks everybody who have made time for this. It's been so long since we gathered together and i was glad to see you all. xx