I just made myself a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows in it. A stay home Wednesday for me was better than I have expected. I don’t have the passion and enthusiasm for housekeeping but today I decided to put in more effort than usual. I even did the laundry for the first time- Yeah, I admit I am that spoilt. My skin condition is rather bad right now, probably because of the warm weather. I switched on the fan to the maximum speed. There were consecutive nights I slept with the air-conditioner at lowest temperature. I’m struggling to keep myself from scratching so I won’t bleed again since I am keeping my long fingernails.
There's something about this kitchen that makes me think a lot. To put it bluntly, I've felt like shit for the past few months. Maybe I just need school to preoccupy my mind because without it, I've just had too much time to focus on the negative aspects of my life. I kept imagining the diagram that represents Maslow’s hierarchy of needs that I learnt last year. Every time I see it in my mind, I have to ask myself what part of the hierarchy is missing from my life and I could find nothing. In fact I am blessed with everything that I need. But I know that soon enough, I will have to take a step back from people. I need to see things clearly and reset my priorities. I need to re-evaluate the real reason I’m doing them, what I want the outcome to be and how I can make a change to see it happen. The thing about me is, I have this tendency to think about others to the extent that I would neglect my own feelings/needs, even though they’re not worthy enough. That's one of my flaws. I guess it's time I listen to myself instead.
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