Rule #85: Certain people are placed in your life to break you, just so you could learn to pull yourself back together again.

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Black dress, Forever 21 | Long blazer, H&M | Wedges, Aldo | Hand bag, Kate Spade
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Then there is this loneliness that I once used to crave for. A separation from the people in my life just to do self reflection. Oh how I loved this isolation long long ago; how I would find ways to seclude myself and my thoughts.

And now? When I have it all, it seems like I don’t need it any more. I seek forgiveness from the Lord for my ungrateful self. Maybe I'll miss it once it's gone but for now it’s doing me no good, nothing at all. Slowly turning myself into an introvert- I don’t even know if that’s a good thing or bad. But for the past couple of nights, it all came crashing back. Everything.

Tonight, I lie on my bedroom floor and stare up at the ceiling. Even when I never thought about thinking of you, I still do somewhere in the back of my mind. I guess this is what you call love. Yet, it seems like I am just wasting my life away because apparently you are not worth my thoughts and time. I wonder how long it will take for me to realize this and do something about it. I recall those moments when you mentioned about me being emotionless in my text messages. I really wished I was. Maybe then I wouldn’t always feel victimized and tied down by emotions. And to that, I say this: maybe you do not know me as well as you thought.


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