Rule #79: Life will put many red lights in front of you. But sometimes, we must push on the gas and trust God.

Title taken from Ihsan's blog! Miss you,x

My mind is plagued with memories of things that I no longer wish to remember. Things I thought I had suppressed or forgotten about. I go back to the beginning where it was all about daisies and butterflies, when everything appeared to be perfect. I recall that moment when I can do whatever I want to do and go wherever I want to go without anything to hide or worry about.

Then my happiness was obliterated by the intimidating and pretentious actions of my surroundings. I lay a plaster over the cut to impede the bleeding, but when I remove it, the wound remains. The grief continues, both profound and excruciating- nobody really knows.

Sometimes I feel like nothing’s really changed. I keep stumbling over the same stuff again and again, and doing absolutely nothing about it- except whine! Well I did try, but failed. When can I get off the hamster wheel? What do I have to do to break it, or at least get it off the track so I can see something new? When can I stamp all this as “Done” and move on? How can I let myself off the guilt hook and move forward with a clean slate?


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