Dear Self,
How many times must I remind you to stop being so naïve? I am very sure that you will mature. You will learn to detach from people. It shouldn't be hard, because people give you enough reason to gather the courage to detach. You will be let down, again and again, but don't worry yourself. All you need is your family and that the love from your parents is vital- So don’t mistreat them. And your Lord. He is always there for you yet your commitment to Him isn't even a quarter fulfilled.
Your capacity to love and heal people always leads to destruction and heartbreak. Do you realise that? You can’t save everybody. You can’t please everyone. Stop trying and stop feeling like you failed at what you tried to do. I know you have given up more times than I can count. It's okay. Don't beat yourself up about it. Forgive yourself. You are more self-conscious than you will ever admit, because people’s judgements scare you, don't they?
You will lose friends, and gain new ones. Everybody teaches you a lesson in life. Learn from your mistakes. Really- Learn how much to say and who to say it to. Don’t ever show anyone the vulnerable side of you until they really deserve it because people will be people. Don’t show them you’re weak because they will take advantage of you. So even if you have many fears, show them you’re strong enough to conquer. Even if you’re not, just do the thing you do best- pretend!
Do you remember what you read the other day by Umar ibn Al-Khattab? “No amount of guilt can change the past, and no amount of worrying can change the future. Go easy on yourself, for the outcome of all affairs is determined by Allaahs decree. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee."
Please turn off the masochistic vibe, girlfriend; it’s not cute at all.
♡ ♡ ♡
The part of you who knows better
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